20th September 2005,
Tues morning- 10.15am to be exact. Has been a while did not write the blog. Need to get it moving, or else it'll disappeared and the habits of writing blog will just die down. Nothing much. Last 2 weeks has been a wonderful day, especially with Pas Sam's Sermon- Title: Sonship in Christ vs. Orphan's Spirit. It's powerful, a reminder of the condition that seems quite familiar- a change of attitude and the assurance of the love of God, the power and authority as the Son of the Most High God. How often we forgotten that, how often we act in an "Orphan-Spirit" as if we're so lacking, as if our heavenly Daddy not able to provide, as if we're been slave down by all the trials and concern of the world. How often we act as the brother of Prodigal Son, full of envy, insufficiency, inadequatecy, not knowing that all "these", all of the Father's possesion belongs to us.
Wed Nite we had a Late Nite Prayer. I went there late, coz helping Foong Ping (Relau Pharmacy) take care her shop. Wed Nite I cried...Joanna lead the Prayer, the Worship and the Prayer of repentance, of tuning our heart back to Him. I wonder why I can cried so easily during worship. Checking deep in my heart, am I loving You God...am I go higher, or lost somewhere? But with the assurance again- whichever state I am, God still won't want to let me go, He is persuing me higher, he take the initiative when i lost all the initiative. repentance is an ACT, not just a word of Sorry, it's an action and turning, moving out. Am I doing it?
Breakthrough Nite. I did not involved in Fasting. The week has been really tight, and I didn't fast. Yet, Praise God- Breakthrough Nite ministered well to the heart and soul of His people. Pas Solomon talks about religious spirit, about Fear, about God's wisdom, about fully trust Him with all we have. Simple message yet full of power. Many people slain in the Spirit, casting demon-possessed, boken in the Spirit.
Work has been okie. With 2 pharmacists in placed, things run pretty well. Just that staff noise still the same level, noisy and always excited. Medication Errors has improved. Keep it up! This week will be going KL for Malaysian Oncology Society Scientific Conference. Hope I can learn something new on Cancer Drugs. Another 2 more days will be the Daddy's Annivesary in Heaven. So fast, 2 years already- nothing much change, got new house, Mum stayed in, brother work so so hard, sis so far away from home. Daddy- how are you up there?? Miss Him, thinking about it make my heart so 'miss'.... He's in good hands, enjoying the splendor of Heavenly Blessings, Take heart Shirley, Take heart!
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Saturday, September 10, 2005
MSQH- We got it! Hurrayyy!!
10th September 2005,
Saturday, 12.44pm. Another few minutes to go back. MSQH is over...and we got high chance for 3 years accreditation. Praise God, it's like whole lots of burden lifted up from my shoulder, yet...a lot concerns need to be carry out, especially in maintaning the standard and achievement. Really tired, plan to take a day off on Monday, but got a meeting, so couldn't able to.
Mind has been blanko a while. It's all about work, new services to offer, training to be continued on- progressing. Cost to be reviewed, there are more to come. Visitation to be made. Cytotoxic Recons P&P need to be finalized before Dr. Leong come back from leave. What else can Pharmacy offer? Yeah..just need to leave it to God, take one thing at a time, be cool and steady.
Church, friends....Hmm, for this pass 2 weeks, has not been actively involved in church and fellowship with believers, only CG last night. Yeah, last nite CG has been good, good sharing on conflict and need for paradigm shift on the attitude and how to response to conflict. Conflict not only in church, but also in working place. How is the attitude to be? What the Word of God said regarding this issue? Good chat with Winnie. Can see her willingness to be mould in God's Word..and her developing trust and dependant on God. Andrew and Winnie has been faithfully attending CG and church, very encouraging. Life is quite static here. Had snack with Emmeline yesterday. Good chat- a reminder to move out of comfort zone, to do something, to make life interesting and more purposeful. To find purpose in life, in God....
Saturday, 12.44pm. Another few minutes to go back. MSQH is over...and we got high chance for 3 years accreditation. Praise God, it's like whole lots of burden lifted up from my shoulder, yet...a lot concerns need to be carry out, especially in maintaning the standard and achievement. Really tired, plan to take a day off on Monday, but got a meeting, so couldn't able to.
Mind has been blanko a while. It's all about work, new services to offer, training to be continued on- progressing. Cost to be reviewed, there are more to come. Visitation to be made. Cytotoxic Recons P&P need to be finalized before Dr. Leong come back from leave. What else can Pharmacy offer? Yeah..just need to leave it to God, take one thing at a time, be cool and steady.
Church, friends....Hmm, for this pass 2 weeks, has not been actively involved in church and fellowship with believers, only CG last night. Yeah, last nite CG has been good, good sharing on conflict and need for paradigm shift on the attitude and how to response to conflict. Conflict not only in church, but also in working place. How is the attitude to be? What the Word of God said regarding this issue? Good chat with Winnie. Can see her willingness to be mould in God's Word..and her developing trust and dependant on God. Andrew and Winnie has been faithfully attending CG and church, very encouraging. Life is quite static here. Had snack with Emmeline yesterday. Good chat- a reminder to move out of comfort zone, to do something, to make life interesting and more purposeful. To find purpose in life, in God....
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
MSQH Day-2
7 August 2005,
Wednesday morning. Yesterday 1st day of Accreditation. We got the Chief Surveyor- CEO of Fatimah Hospital and CEO of Sg Petani Hospital coming to our Department to interview us. They're pretty strict this time, dig really deep into our P&P and our meeting minutes...most of the documents. But at least, praise God, I prepared and our QA and documentation are up to date. Geee..thot yesterday will be over, but not yet...today more to come. Later 1pm I'll be having interview with the 2 surveyors, with Dr. Ramasamy. I'm shivering. Don't know what to expect and don't really know what to prepare.
Life has been real busy and stressful, not of the load work, but it's more of the planning and the overload of stff running in my mind: wht's the outcome like? How's the staff doing? Can they answer the quiries? Can we pass? What will happen after MSQH? Am I doing right thing with Bulletin telling the consultants we're going into CDR? Oh..thinking about it make me fearful- more of expectation, from management, and staff. Will I overload the staff?
Lord, need Your wisdom. Wisdom from above. The peace of God that surpasses all understanding of man, to gurad my heart, my MIND in Christ. In Christ alone, Thank you!
Wednesday morning. Yesterday 1st day of Accreditation. We got the Chief Surveyor- CEO of Fatimah Hospital and CEO of Sg Petani Hospital coming to our Department to interview us. They're pretty strict this time, dig really deep into our P&P and our meeting minutes...most of the documents. But at least, praise God, I prepared and our QA and documentation are up to date. Geee..thot yesterday will be over, but not yet...today more to come. Later 1pm I'll be having interview with the 2 surveyors, with Dr. Ramasamy. I'm shivering. Don't know what to expect and don't really know what to prepare.
Life has been real busy and stressful, not of the load work, but it's more of the planning and the overload of stff running in my mind: wht's the outcome like? How's the staff doing? Can they answer the quiries? Can we pass? What will happen after MSQH? Am I doing right thing with Bulletin telling the consultants we're going into CDR? Oh..thinking about it make me fearful- more of expectation, from management, and staff. Will I overload the staff?
Lord, need Your wisdom. Wisdom from above. The peace of God that surpasses all understanding of man, to gurad my heart, my MIND in Christ. In Christ alone, Thank you!
Thursday, September 01, 2005
MSQH drawing Near...4 more days to go!
1st September 2005,
Thurs. After Merdeka holidays, quite slack! Wow, so fast, don't realise that another 4 more days for MSQH. Am I prepared? Not pretty sure. A lot things, need to familiar to know how to answer the surveyors; 7 of them, 4 doctors, 1 matron, 1 patologist, 1 CEO of one of the hospital. Don't know who will be interviewing Pharmacy department. Prayfully will be a better one- pray for favour, pray for grace.
After MSQH- another huge project- CDR, am not so familiar- blur*_* Need wisdom, need grace. despite the busyness schedule and plans and dateline to meet, I need to learn not to forget things so dear in my life:- family, friends, and people that has life. That they are much more important than those datelines and those static things. People is life, and they are precious- I need to learn to appreciate them, to spend time, to smile more.
I guess I havenot been mingle around with my staff. Even my Pharmacists- we did not really talk much personally- maybe I should do something about it. Well, pressure up the shoulder. Need to laid it down, not bearing my own, knowing that I am not serving man, but God. Not my name, not my reputation, but His Name, His Name be glorified. Just do your best- God do the rest, Relax...cool down, let go and let God. Might by might, not by power but by His Spirit. His Spirit empowered. You decreased, He increased!
Thurs. After Merdeka holidays, quite slack! Wow, so fast, don't realise that another 4 more days for MSQH. Am I prepared? Not pretty sure. A lot things, need to familiar to know how to answer the surveyors; 7 of them, 4 doctors, 1 matron, 1 patologist, 1 CEO of one of the hospital. Don't know who will be interviewing Pharmacy department. Prayfully will be a better one- pray for favour, pray for grace.
After MSQH- another huge project- CDR, am not so familiar- blur*_* Need wisdom, need grace. despite the busyness schedule and plans and dateline to meet, I need to learn not to forget things so dear in my life:- family, friends, and people that has life. That they are much more important than those datelines and those static things. People is life, and they are precious- I need to learn to appreciate them, to spend time, to smile more.
I guess I havenot been mingle around with my staff. Even my Pharmacists- we did not really talk much personally- maybe I should do something about it. Well, pressure up the shoulder. Need to laid it down, not bearing my own, knowing that I am not serving man, but God. Not my name, not my reputation, but His Name, His Name be glorified. Just do your best- God do the rest, Relax...cool down, let go and let God. Might by might, not by power but by His Spirit. His Spirit empowered. You decreased, He increased!
Conversation with God
1st Sept 2005,
Discover this quite some time ago. It's good- better save it in my blog for future reference:)
I Asked God to ...............
I asked God to take away my bad habits.
God said, It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.
I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary
I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, Patience is a byproduct of tribulations; it isn't granted, it is learned.
I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, I give you blessings; Happiness is up to you.
I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.
I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said, You must grow on your own! , But I will prune you to make you fruitful.
I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life.
God said, I will give you life, so that you may enjoy all things.
I ask God to help me LOVE others, as much as He loves me.
God said...Ahhhh, finally you thinking right.
Trust in God.
An eventful Sunday
28th August 2005,
Today is 1st September but I am blogging in what happen last Sunday. Yeah, eventful Sunday. Had Dim-Sum with Angie and Ai Ling, then proceed to City Bayview Hotel for Protopic launching. Stay there chit chatting with Kenneth and Coring after lunch, then thinking of going Gurney for shopping. On my way there, sms-ed Angie asked her whether want to come but she not coming. The way to Gurney a lot of cars- so I scraped my plan for shopping, and move on to Western Road- planning to go cemetery. On my way, Mum called, I pick up the phone, and talking on the phone while driving. As usual...did not use hand-free;) then on my way turn to cemetery, I saw the police behind me also trying to turn in the cemetery...Oh Man! I switched my h.p. and throw it away....
Then the police stop my at the juncture to Cemetery. We 'chat' for almost half an hour. I asked him to give me another chance, not to summon me, he keep arguing that working in hospital a lot money. Private-work a lot money, in a way hinting to me to bribe. He said, "Jadi- macam mana?" Geee....I said "Tak Tau la, saya minta tolong maaf satu kali, kalau encik tak mau tolong- tak apalah, saya bayar" Then I think I do mention 'agama'- "agama Kristen tidak boleh tolong encik"..something like that. Oh Man! What am I saying...he will surely summon me, he even scared me that it will cost about RM150, or if more RM 300...hmm..what to do?? I am so tempted to just give RM50 and chao...but I can't do it. Remember pas message- pastor mentioned he's a Christian and can't bribe, then the police let him go...so maybe I can do the same, but if he summon me, then he summon-lah...
Praise God, the police finally said- "pergi", pass back all my IC and Driving licence. I can't stop thanking him. He must be thinking what kinda of this little girl like me, jumping excitedly thanking him:) Haha...then I drive to see daddy...after such long time. Didn't even bring anything- no flowers. Bring my heart and soul and mind there. Miss daddy. Then after a while, drive out from cemetery- the police still there..hmm...what happen ah? I give him a sign of 'bye bye' and go off....hope he won't submit my particular and summon me. i think won't lar..
This precious lesson taught me not to talk on-the-phone and drive. And also to not compromise in the standrad of the world. Thank God for all.
Today is 1st September but I am blogging in what happen last Sunday. Yeah, eventful Sunday. Had Dim-Sum with Angie and Ai Ling, then proceed to City Bayview Hotel for Protopic launching. Stay there chit chatting with Kenneth and Coring after lunch, then thinking of going Gurney for shopping. On my way there, sms-ed Angie asked her whether want to come but she not coming. The way to Gurney a lot of cars- so I scraped my plan for shopping, and move on to Western Road- planning to go cemetery. On my way, Mum called, I pick up the phone, and talking on the phone while driving. As usual...did not use hand-free;) then on my way turn to cemetery, I saw the police behind me also trying to turn in the cemetery...Oh Man! I switched my h.p. and throw it away....
Then the police stop my at the juncture to Cemetery. We 'chat' for almost half an hour. I asked him to give me another chance, not to summon me, he keep arguing that working in hospital a lot money. Private-work a lot money, in a way hinting to me to bribe. He said, "Jadi- macam mana?" Geee....I said "Tak Tau la, saya minta tolong maaf satu kali, kalau encik tak mau tolong- tak apalah, saya bayar" Then I think I do mention 'agama'- "agama Kristen tidak boleh tolong encik"..something like that. Oh Man! What am I saying...he will surely summon me, he even scared me that it will cost about RM150, or if more RM 300...hmm..what to do?? I am so tempted to just give RM50 and chao...but I can't do it. Remember pas message- pastor mentioned he's a Christian and can't bribe, then the police let him go...so maybe I can do the same, but if he summon me, then he summon-lah...
Praise God, the police finally said- "pergi", pass back all my IC and Driving licence. I can't stop thanking him. He must be thinking what kinda of this little girl like me, jumping excitedly thanking him:) Haha...then I drive to see daddy...after such long time. Didn't even bring anything- no flowers. Bring my heart and soul and mind there. Miss daddy. Then after a while, drive out from cemetery- the police still there..hmm...what happen ah? I give him a sign of 'bye bye' and go off....hope he won't submit my particular and summon me. i think won't lar..
This precious lesson taught me not to talk on-the-phone and drive. And also to not compromise in the standrad of the world. Thank God for all.
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Tuesday Sick....
30th August 2005,
Tuesday Morning. Yesterday vomitting after dinner, sleep very early- 9.30pm knock out already. Thought of taking MC today but so many work to complete, couldn't able to not be around. As usual, Pharmacy noisy...am feeling dizzy. Generating Purchase Order now, probably later want to see doctor and take half day MC, not sure how it goes.
Actually wanna write the blog yesterday about th eventful Sunday experience, yet am so filled with work, real busy, no time to check mail. Now also can't, just scrabble a few line before log off. Hope I can still recall the experiences on Sunday. Overall that happened, the Lord is good and faithful. Tomorrow is Merdeka, can't wait to have holidays and to rest. Alright Blog...will log in later, Chao!
Tuesday Morning. Yesterday vomitting after dinner, sleep very early- 9.30pm knock out already. Thought of taking MC today but so many work to complete, couldn't able to not be around. As usual, Pharmacy noisy...am feeling dizzy. Generating Purchase Order now, probably later want to see doctor and take half day MC, not sure how it goes.
Actually wanna write the blog yesterday about th eventful Sunday experience, yet am so filled with work, real busy, no time to check mail. Now also can't, just scrabble a few line before log off. Hope I can still recall the experiences on Sunday. Overall that happened, the Lord is good and faithful. Tomorrow is Merdeka, can't wait to have holidays and to rest. Alright Blog...will log in later, Chao!
Saturday, August 27, 2005
Saturday, Great!
27th August 2005,
Saturday morning. I reached hospital early. This few week has been early in the hospital. Want to catch those come late. Keep on stressing on the punctuality yet still people don't care. Must do something about this. Yeah...wow, this 2 days very hapenning, tired yet exciting, at least I was out from home, get exposed to the different environment, meeting friends and getting myself busy.
Saturday as usual will be busy day. The staff is chatting outside about Malaysian Idols, I can hear that:) Early morning not much work- they will be talking, yeah...nevermind la, should be okie. Charmine helping outside In-Patient. Mag in the room, not sure what she's doing- probably getting the Bulletin done before MSQH.
Later mum and brother will be going to fetch sis from airport, then probably catch me for lunch then go mainland. Yeah...last nite went to E&O then drop by Segagate to see the CG Outing- Eu Geen and Angie joining. Had good time. Raining, tired but good day. Lily smsed, asked to fetch them to church today- car got accident. Not sure what happen- another accident? Lord, protect your people thru' all the travelling. Grant me this day- day of rejoicing and joy in Your presence. Guide me to love, care and be sensitive to others need, wisdom in workplace, give the best to You, Amen!
Saturday morning. I reached hospital early. This few week has been early in the hospital. Want to catch those come late. Keep on stressing on the punctuality yet still people don't care. Must do something about this. Yeah...wow, this 2 days very hapenning, tired yet exciting, at least I was out from home, get exposed to the different environment, meeting friends and getting myself busy.
Saturday as usual will be busy day. The staff is chatting outside about Malaysian Idols, I can hear that:) Early morning not much work- they will be talking, yeah...nevermind la, should be okie. Charmine helping outside In-Patient. Mag in the room, not sure what she's doing- probably getting the Bulletin done before MSQH.
Later mum and brother will be going to fetch sis from airport, then probably catch me for lunch then go mainland. Yeah...last nite went to E&O then drop by Segagate to see the CG Outing- Eu Geen and Angie joining. Had good time. Raining, tired but good day. Lily smsed, asked to fetch them to church today- car got accident. Not sure what happen- another accident? Lord, protect your people thru' all the travelling. Grant me this day- day of rejoicing and joy in Your presence. Guide me to love, care and be sensitive to others need, wisdom in workplace, give the best to You, Amen!
Friday, August 26, 2005
Friday Cool
26th August 2005,
Fri. 5.18pm. After office hour, take the time to write something in the blog. Fri, geee...real real fast, another week. Today nothing much. Boss wasn't around, he's in Brunei. Morning I sneak out (not really lar..got ask permission from Boss even though he's not around) from hospital to MPPP to check on the payment on my Cukai Pintu. Oh Man...I need to pay RM800 ++ for the tunggakan and the 1/2 yearly Cukai Pintu. This month bill on the rise, mum cataract bill haven't got the reimbursement, hopefully will at least get half reimbursement. This coming Mon need to go again to appeal to waive the Notice and Warran Charges, hopefully they will grant me the appeal. Cool day, early morning gone for Hepatitis Jab- 2nd Dose. Should be vaccinated long ago after dad passed away, but delay till today. Mum keep asking, I 'buat tak tau'. Very bad girl, till someone scared me with the uprising of Hepatitis infection, then only I put a step to get vaccination. The 3rd Dose will be next year-Jan, then need to check for antibody. Hmm...what else to write, am recalling back what happen today. Actually not much- doing Ward Check, Checking antidote for Mercury Overdose, calling up Poison Centre.
Now am waiting for time to pass- wahh...as if i got a lot time. Nahh, checking mail, chatting with Lu Cheah and Angie, then writting the blog. A lot things lying on my table but don't bother to squeeze my brain to think. Wait or tomorrow lar...:) Later will have dinner beside Gleneagles- Northam Towel, Hmm..don't think I can join, really want to attend the Emend Talk since the Pharmacy going to take over CDR. Maybe will join after the talk. Oh man, tomorrow gonna work...sob sob. Quite bz this month, yet still have time to sit with mum watch Korean series movie, not bad Shirley. Have not been going for Prayer Meet, oops, that's not a good sign. Sis might be coming over this Saturday, but her talk will be at the mainland, don't know got time to meet up.
Hmmm...long day, Prayer:- Lord Father, Strengthen me Lord, cause me to be alert and sensitive to others needs, and to be a good listener, childlike faith and to be true to self in every encounter. Bless this day, bless the meeting, bless the people that i'm going to meet, Amen!
Fri. 5.18pm. After office hour, take the time to write something in the blog. Fri, geee...real real fast, another week. Today nothing much. Boss wasn't around, he's in Brunei. Morning I sneak out (not really lar..got ask permission from Boss even though he's not around) from hospital to MPPP to check on the payment on my Cukai Pintu. Oh Man...I need to pay RM800 ++ for the tunggakan and the 1/2 yearly Cukai Pintu. This month bill on the rise, mum cataract bill haven't got the reimbursement, hopefully will at least get half reimbursement. This coming Mon need to go again to appeal to waive the Notice and Warran Charges, hopefully they will grant me the appeal. Cool day, early morning gone for Hepatitis Jab- 2nd Dose. Should be vaccinated long ago after dad passed away, but delay till today. Mum keep asking, I 'buat tak tau'. Very bad girl, till someone scared me with the uprising of Hepatitis infection, then only I put a step to get vaccination. The 3rd Dose will be next year-Jan, then need to check for antibody. Hmm...what else to write, am recalling back what happen today. Actually not much- doing Ward Check, Checking antidote for Mercury Overdose, calling up Poison Centre.
Now am waiting for time to pass- wahh...as if i got a lot time. Nahh, checking mail, chatting with Lu Cheah and Angie, then writting the blog. A lot things lying on my table but don't bother to squeeze my brain to think. Wait or tomorrow lar...:) Later will have dinner beside Gleneagles- Northam Towel, Hmm..don't think I can join, really want to attend the Emend Talk since the Pharmacy going to take over CDR. Maybe will join after the talk. Oh man, tomorrow gonna work...sob sob. Quite bz this month, yet still have time to sit with mum watch Korean series movie, not bad Shirley. Have not been going for Prayer Meet, oops, that's not a good sign. Sis might be coming over this Saturday, but her talk will be at the mainland, don't know got time to meet up.
Hmmm...long day, Prayer:- Lord Father, Strengthen me Lord, cause me to be alert and sensitive to others needs, and to be a good listener, childlike faith and to be true to self in every encounter. Bless this day, bless the meeting, bless the people that i'm going to meet, Amen!
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Pray for God's Covering
24th August 2005,
Wed morning. Reached hospital pretty early. Another story of eventful day- for Matthew. Heard from Eric he just met accident. The car got bang by a truck, hugh truch and the whole back bumper got injured. And it's 3 cars in a row. When I heard the news I was like "Oh No!"...What happen to Matt, is he alright? God gracious- He protected Matt, and thank God he's alright. Nothing happen, only the whole car got injury and need to send to car-clinic for check up and operation. Geee...that's pretty scary hearing accident case. Need to pray for God's covering and protection wherever we go. We just shared in Cell last week on car accident, and now this happen..shocking. This morning fetch Matt to work. Thank God not that jam after all, and I manage to reach office early. Today will be bz day- got 2 Ward Check for the whole day. " Lord, may I have strength in You- to go through the day from strength to strength and glory to glory. May this day Your Name be glorified. Thank You!"
Wed morning. Reached hospital pretty early. Another story of eventful day- for Matthew. Heard from Eric he just met accident. The car got bang by a truck, hugh truch and the whole back bumper got injured. And it's 3 cars in a row. When I heard the news I was like "Oh No!"...What happen to Matt, is he alright? God gracious- He protected Matt, and thank God he's alright. Nothing happen, only the whole car got injury and need to send to car-clinic for check up and operation. Geee...that's pretty scary hearing accident case. Need to pray for God's covering and protection wherever we go. We just shared in Cell last week on car accident, and now this happen..shocking. This morning fetch Matt to work. Thank God not that jam after all, and I manage to reach office early. Today will be bz day- got 2 Ward Check for the whole day. " Lord, may I have strength in You- to go through the day from strength to strength and glory to glory. May this day Your Name be glorified. Thank You!"
Monday, August 22, 2005
Deep searching Deep...
22th August 2005,
Monday. It's 5.30pm Monday evening. This morning we had a Staff Meeting. It's like the Cell Group, trying to start with some ice-breaker before start the meeting, but due to time constraint I directly move on to the meeting minutes. The people are very quiet, wonder how to feel meeting up in the morning. Can't find any better time for meeting; people don't like stay back for meeting coz most of them have families. I tried to keep it short and informative and speed up the meeting..try to finish up before 9am..Geee, 1/2 hour meeting, that is not possible, what can we achieve? Finally- ended about almost 9am.
Work piling up. MSQH drawing near. A lot more things to settle, but I'm just cool, and steadfast. Got time lar, got time...don't over-stress yourself. Things are under control. Pas. Sam's sermon on Saturday was very encouraging and challenging. It knocked at the door of my heart when he mention searching deep. Going deeper. Deeper in love with Him, deeper love and longing to seek Him, deeper stretching with Him...getting deeper with Him; not a superficial one, not a surface service or devotion- going deeper for the source of life, goal and purpose.
Monday. It's 5.30pm Monday evening. This morning we had a Staff Meeting. It's like the Cell Group, trying to start with some ice-breaker before start the meeting, but due to time constraint I directly move on to the meeting minutes. The people are very quiet, wonder how to feel meeting up in the morning. Can't find any better time for meeting; people don't like stay back for meeting coz most of them have families. I tried to keep it short and informative and speed up the meeting..try to finish up before 9am..Geee, 1/2 hour meeting, that is not possible, what can we achieve? Finally- ended about almost 9am.
Work piling up. MSQH drawing near. A lot more things to settle, but I'm just cool, and steadfast. Got time lar, got time...don't over-stress yourself. Things are under control. Pas. Sam's sermon on Saturday was very encouraging and challenging. It knocked at the door of my heart when he mention searching deep. Going deeper. Deeper in love with Him, deeper love and longing to seek Him, deeper stretching with Him...getting deeper with Him; not a superficial one, not a surface service or devotion- going deeper for the source of life, goal and purpose.
Saturday, August 20, 2005
Burned Up and not Burned Out
20th August 2005,
Saturday Morning. Wonderful Praise and Worship. Has not been experiencing this for quite some time. Pastor Sam's birthday today. We had a small Breakfast Party for Ps Sam, good time...good food:) The passage preached today is focus on Ps 84.
Saturday Morning. Wonderful Praise and Worship. Has not been experiencing this for quite some time. Pastor Sam's birthday today. We had a small Breakfast Party for Ps Sam, good time...good food:) The passage preached today is focus on Ps 84.
1 How lovely is your dwelling place, O LORD Almighty!
2 My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the LORD; my heart and my flesh cry outfor the living God.
3 Even the sparrow has found a home, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may have her young— a place near your altar, O LORD Almighty, my King and my God.
4 Blessed are those who dwell in your house; they are ever praising you.
2 My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the LORD; my heart and my flesh cry outfor the living God.
3 Even the sparrow has found a home, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may have her young— a place near your altar, O LORD Almighty, my King and my God.
4 Blessed are those who dwell in your house; they are ever praising you.
5 Blessed are those whose strength is in you, who have set their hearts on pilgrimage.
6 As they pass through the Valley of Baca, they make it a place of springs; the autumn rains also cover it with pools.
7 They go from strength to strength, till each appears before God in Zion.
8 Hear my prayer, O LORD God Almighty; listen to me, O God of Jacob.
6 As they pass through the Valley of Baca, they make it a place of springs; the autumn rains also cover it with pools.
7 They go from strength to strength, till each appears before God in Zion.
8 Hear my prayer, O LORD God Almighty; listen to me, O God of Jacob.
9 Look upon our shield, O God; look with favor on your anointed one.
10 Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere; I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of the wicked.
11 For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestows favor and honor; no good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless.
12 O LORD Almighty, blessed is the man who trusts in you.
10 Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere; I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of the wicked.
11 For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestows favor and honor; no good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless.
12 O LORD Almighty, blessed is the man who trusts in you.
It's very encouraging. It's about His Glory, about His presence...nothing else matter. Like how Moses cried out: " If Your presence did not go with us, we don't want to leave this place". If Your presence not with us, it's worthless for us to move on from here, to serve and to have our being...Come and dwell in us through our workplace, our family, our church...Come and reign..
Thursday, August 18, 2005
Perils of Autumn
18th August 2005,
Thurs afternoon, 4.54pm. Time to go home, want to write the blog before sign out. Thurs was fine. Early moring, do some purchasing and reports. Dr. Leong was half day, so not much of Chemo-case to do, a bit free..no need to go up ward. Just now spoken to Sister Qym regarding CDR. She's very happy we gonna take over. Myself, a bit excited, mixed with feeling of fear and inadequacy, whether can we cope? Not enough staff now, but can we cope? Can the 3 pharmacist cope then? Hopefully so. Waitng for MSQH to get over- another 18 more days to go. Thats' pretty near, are we ready for it? Can the Pharmacy Staff perform according to the standard and S.O.P. Has spoon-feed quite a lot, I expect them to able to work well.
Autumn. One of the 4 seasons: Winter--> Spring--> Summer--> Autumn. The winter is over, it should be the time for spring, but so weird...as far as I can identify, this is the time of Autumn. I've just missed Spring and Summer. Autumn is a time to be refreshed after long serving, to avoid burn-out, to rekindle passion and focus. Autumn is a time to quieten down, and to search, seek the direction from the Lord, and to be focused for the upcoming service. Autumn is the time of care-free, to be still, to be still and know that He is Lord. Am searching long, the process of autumn has been long, and it has not end, or it might end, but I just didn't realise, didn't sense of the wind of change.
Perils of Autumn- passiveness, lukewarm, complacency, holidays mood. Need to be sensitive to the chance, to understand the end of the season when it arrive, or else will lost the opportunity. It has been a while. I need to set some goals- start small, measurable, achievable, realistic with timeframe (SMART). Yeah...Eric shared this before. Where to start, Lord? Teach me, help me to identify the area to start. Not too much focus on self. Focus on You, Lord! It's all about You...Open my eyes to see, and my spiritual heart to sense Your leading, and move with You.
Thurs afternoon, 4.54pm. Time to go home, want to write the blog before sign out. Thurs was fine. Early moring, do some purchasing and reports. Dr. Leong was half day, so not much of Chemo-case to do, a bit free..no need to go up ward. Just now spoken to Sister Qym regarding CDR. She's very happy we gonna take over. Myself, a bit excited, mixed with feeling of fear and inadequacy, whether can we cope? Not enough staff now, but can we cope? Can the 3 pharmacist cope then? Hopefully so. Waitng for MSQH to get over- another 18 more days to go. Thats' pretty near, are we ready for it? Can the Pharmacy Staff perform according to the standard and S.O.P. Has spoon-feed quite a lot, I expect them to able to work well.
Autumn. One of the 4 seasons: Winter--> Spring--> Summer--> Autumn. The winter is over, it should be the time for spring, but so weird...as far as I can identify, this is the time of Autumn. I've just missed Spring and Summer. Autumn is a time to be refreshed after long serving, to avoid burn-out, to rekindle passion and focus. Autumn is a time to quieten down, and to search, seek the direction from the Lord, and to be focused for the upcoming service. Autumn is the time of care-free, to be still, to be still and know that He is Lord. Am searching long, the process of autumn has been long, and it has not end, or it might end, but I just didn't realise, didn't sense of the wind of change.
Perils of Autumn- passiveness, lukewarm, complacency, holidays mood. Need to be sensitive to the chance, to understand the end of the season when it arrive, or else will lost the opportunity. It has been a while. I need to set some goals- start small, measurable, achievable, realistic with timeframe (SMART). Yeah...Eric shared this before. Where to start, Lord? Teach me, help me to identify the area to start. Not too much focus on self. Focus on You, Lord! It's all about You...Open my eyes to see, and my spiritual heart to sense Your leading, and move with You.
Jesus, we enthrone You...
18th August 2005,
Thursday morning. Went for morning prayer. 4 of us in the prayer- Pr. Sam, Maryanne, and Ivy (USM). Had a wonderful time of worship- praising God, enthrone Him and magnifying His Name over all the earth. After prayer, fetch the student back, and on my way to work. Stop by one coffee shop at Pulau Tikus, had my breakfast/Brunch for the start of the day.
Reach hospital pretty early. Pharmacy so quiet, great! Nobody here yet, am the only one. Another new day. Praying for a good start of the day- with God's wisdom to work, His joy to love and His strength to sustain. The Lord be enthroned in GMC, in Pharmacy, in my family, over my friends, Cell Group, Church....
Thursday morning. Went for morning prayer. 4 of us in the prayer- Pr. Sam, Maryanne, and Ivy (USM). Had a wonderful time of worship- praising God, enthrone Him and magnifying His Name over all the earth. After prayer, fetch the student back, and on my way to work. Stop by one coffee shop at Pulau Tikus, had my breakfast/Brunch for the start of the day.
Reach hospital pretty early. Pharmacy so quiet, great! Nobody here yet, am the only one. Another new day. Praying for a good start of the day- with God's wisdom to work, His joy to love and His strength to sustain. The Lord be enthroned in GMC, in Pharmacy, in my family, over my friends, Cell Group, Church....
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
Busy day...Pressing on
16th August 2005,
Tues. Busy day. Had a session of meeting with staff on Fire Safety and Code White. Very basic things what to do during Fire and Mass Disaster. The staff need to be awared on the Casualty flow and Plan chart. At least if any question post to them, they can answer well. Just need a few more fine tuning to get ready MSQH. Documentation almost done, a bit more, a bit more- pressed on. After Sept, got so many things coming in- It's the time to get ready to really sit down and write protocol on CDR. Quite scary, but it's challenging. Should not complaint on that. Need to make it into reality.
So much about work. Wondering back my mind- Church, service, devotion to God. Have I been a faithful servant, any pleasant testimony? If I'm not struggles on my own flesh and surrender, what does that means? What should be the next step and action plan, or initiative to draw close to God. What are the area He wants to work in me? Am I allowing Him to do so?
This Fri I won't be sharing. Matt will be leading the topic. Great, seeing Cheah Keat and Matt rising up, serving, leading, shepherding. Encouraging. What about you Shirley? What is your stand now? How do you want to take up Ministry upcoming season? How do you evaluate the season? Has the winter over? What about the autumn and spring? How do you want to move on with the life of passion, to take off the idleness and fly on the wing of eagles? Why are you weary and sadden? Have you not trust the Father?
Nothing you can do, to make Him love you more, Nothing you have done, could make Him close the door. Because of His great love, He gave His only Son, Everything was done so You would come. ...Everything was done so you would come. It is DONE, it is finished....pressed on, pressed on...come on Shirley, Press On!!! Daddy loves you!
I'm pressing on Daddy, wait for me....I'm coming, please don't go away. Wait for me, give me more time...I'm learning to walk Daddy...
Tues. Busy day. Had a session of meeting with staff on Fire Safety and Code White. Very basic things what to do during Fire and Mass Disaster. The staff need to be awared on the Casualty flow and Plan chart. At least if any question post to them, they can answer well. Just need a few more fine tuning to get ready MSQH. Documentation almost done, a bit more, a bit more- pressed on. After Sept, got so many things coming in- It's the time to get ready to really sit down and write protocol on CDR. Quite scary, but it's challenging. Should not complaint on that. Need to make it into reality.
So much about work. Wondering back my mind- Church, service, devotion to God. Have I been a faithful servant, any pleasant testimony? If I'm not struggles on my own flesh and surrender, what does that means? What should be the next step and action plan, or initiative to draw close to God. What are the area He wants to work in me? Am I allowing Him to do so?
This Fri I won't be sharing. Matt will be leading the topic. Great, seeing Cheah Keat and Matt rising up, serving, leading, shepherding. Encouraging. What about you Shirley? What is your stand now? How do you want to take up Ministry upcoming season? How do you evaluate the season? Has the winter over? What about the autumn and spring? How do you want to move on with the life of passion, to take off the idleness and fly on the wing of eagles? Why are you weary and sadden? Have you not trust the Father?
Nothing you can do, to make Him love you more, Nothing you have done, could make Him close the door. Because of His great love, He gave His only Son, Everything was done so You would come. ...Everything was done so you would come. It is DONE, it is finished....pressed on, pressed on...come on Shirley, Press On!!! Daddy loves you!
I'm pressing on Daddy, wait for me....I'm coming, please don't go away. Wait for me, give me more time...I'm learning to walk Daddy...
Vertical, Horizontal Line...
16th August 2005,
Tuesday. Today will be having a meeting with staff- on Fire Safety and Code White. Can't imagine a Pharmacist like me require to brief the staff on such topic which I'm not familiar with. Anyway, it's time of learning for all of us too: basic topic on what to do during Fire disaster or Mass Disaster. How to use Fire Extingusher and common understanding of the Fire Break glass panel, Fire alarm, Fire Exit. Evacuation Plan etc. Sounds interesting.
Yesterday had supper with Roland and Celina. Informative discussion on Ministry. I know deep in my heart that the passion for Ministry and church has been cool. "Cooling" isn't a good word to use. I felt pretty sad yesterday after the discussion. Probably what Roland said is true- his view and stand on Ministry, yet I still find very hard to flow in the Ministry as how I used to be. And that should have some time-frame so that the passion will not be diluted and getting far off and disconnect. I understand that fully, but I still couldn't do anything. What I know is I just want to be cool down, be in the place where I can just be myself, not bound by anything. Or probably that is the rebellious natue in me. Or is it that I couldn't accept myself. Or how? I don't know, what I know is that my relationship with others isn't well, not in the sense of having dispute or bitterness towards others, not of being angry of jeolous of others. It's just the nature of me, being quite passive, and getting angry and impatience esily nowadays. Where is the fruit of the Spirit? How is my relationship with God? Am I still angry with Him? How could I? Searching deep within, I couldn't stand the brokenness felt within. Is that another rolling emotion and depair spirit? How to counter that? How to use the Word of God, to stay positive? I'm so amazed by how Roland reacted after he lost his wallet. In such time like this, he choose to praise God, to stand and praise God. If I'm in such condition how should be my reaction? If something happen around me that seems unfavourable how should I thank God? He gives and He takes away, Blessed be the Name of the Lord! What's wrong with me Lord? I couldn't reach Your heart.... I need Your power in me. Father, what's wrong with me? Is it me? Or I should laid my eyes off myself, focus on Him. Lift up your eyes unto the Lord, who does your help comes from, Your help comes from the Lord of the heaven and earth...
I wonder of my relationship with God. Or my relationship with others. It seems cold, cool...that it just like being injected with anaesthetic drugs- no feeling, not initiative. Am I in self pity again? Probably I should not have saying the things that pulling down the Spirit. Probably I need to choose to Praise, to Praise, to Praise...
Talking about openness, honesty. I'll be sharing the subject this Fri. It challenges me again preparing for such lesson- in which I know deep within I am not open, I'm not easily sharing out my heart, and I'm close so that not to be vulnerable to be hurt. Is it God trying to ask me to be more open, more vulnerable? Open up yourself, be yourself, don't worry to be hurt. It's okay- trust me to heal.
Oh God! I'm so tired. Revive my heart once again...
Tuesday. Today will be having a meeting with staff- on Fire Safety and Code White. Can't imagine a Pharmacist like me require to brief the staff on such topic which I'm not familiar with. Anyway, it's time of learning for all of us too: basic topic on what to do during Fire disaster or Mass Disaster. How to use Fire Extingusher and common understanding of the Fire Break glass panel, Fire alarm, Fire Exit. Evacuation Plan etc. Sounds interesting.
Yesterday had supper with Roland and Celina. Informative discussion on Ministry. I know deep in my heart that the passion for Ministry and church has been cool. "Cooling" isn't a good word to use. I felt pretty sad yesterday after the discussion. Probably what Roland said is true- his view and stand on Ministry, yet I still find very hard to flow in the Ministry as how I used to be. And that should have some time-frame so that the passion will not be diluted and getting far off and disconnect. I understand that fully, but I still couldn't do anything. What I know is I just want to be cool down, be in the place where I can just be myself, not bound by anything. Or probably that is the rebellious natue in me. Or is it that I couldn't accept myself. Or how? I don't know, what I know is that my relationship with others isn't well, not in the sense of having dispute or bitterness towards others, not of being angry of jeolous of others. It's just the nature of me, being quite passive, and getting angry and impatience esily nowadays. Where is the fruit of the Spirit? How is my relationship with God? Am I still angry with Him? How could I? Searching deep within, I couldn't stand the brokenness felt within. Is that another rolling emotion and depair spirit? How to counter that? How to use the Word of God, to stay positive? I'm so amazed by how Roland reacted after he lost his wallet. In such time like this, he choose to praise God, to stand and praise God. If I'm in such condition how should be my reaction? If something happen around me that seems unfavourable how should I thank God? He gives and He takes away, Blessed be the Name of the Lord! What's wrong with me Lord? I couldn't reach Your heart.... I need Your power in me. Father, what's wrong with me? Is it me? Or I should laid my eyes off myself, focus on Him. Lift up your eyes unto the Lord, who does your help comes from, Your help comes from the Lord of the heaven and earth...
I wonder of my relationship with God. Or my relationship with others. It seems cold, cool...that it just like being injected with anaesthetic drugs- no feeling, not initiative. Am I in self pity again? Probably I should not have saying the things that pulling down the Spirit. Probably I need to choose to Praise, to Praise, to Praise...
Talking about openness, honesty. I'll be sharing the subject this Fri. It challenges me again preparing for such lesson- in which I know deep within I am not open, I'm not easily sharing out my heart, and I'm close so that not to be vulnerable to be hurt. Is it God trying to ask me to be more open, more vulnerable? Open up yourself, be yourself, don't worry to be hurt. It's okay- trust me to heal.
Oh God! I'm so tired. Revive my heart once again...
Ps 119: 33-40
Teach me, O LORD, the way of Your statutes,
And I shall keep it to the end.
Give me understanding, and I shall keep Your law;
Indeed, I shall observe it with my whole heart.
Make me walk in the path of Your commandments,
For I delight in it. Incline my heart to Your testimonies, And not to covetousness.
Turn away my eyes from looking at worthless things,
And revive me in Your way......
Revive me in Your righteousness.
Saturday, August 13, 2005
Weekend...just can't wait.
13th August 2005,
Saturday. Each time scribble something in my blog, I'll be thinking of how fast the time fly. It's near weekend, Saturday. I long for saturday and Sunday to come. Great!
This morning drive to work. Haze in Penang getting bad. Can't even see the mainland from my balcony. That's pretty bad. Wonder what's going on? So much changes in the world. Earlier few months, we talk about Tsunami, then 2nd Tsunami, then 3rd Tsunami- prophesy on the destruction of Penang island, then now terrible haze. Is it a sign, some alarm or warning sign God trying to get to us? Yeah...hmmm...to wake up, to rise up from all the worldly pursue and to press on pursuing His and His eternity? To have a change, a transformation paradigm shift- drawing closer, closer to Him. Obeying Him and His Word in everything. To set ourselves pure and holy, blameless till the end of the day of Christ coming? I don't know, only God knows.
Yesterday real real tired. Never been so tired before. Probably has been long not going out supper as this hour. Sign of aging probably. Yesterday High Step was good. Yeah, a learning and reminder again about pure life, conduct in relationship. One thing catch my attention: "Do not awaken love until it is desired". Truly said, but sadly speaking at such society, it has been norm on freedom of the understanding of sex. It's not conservative anymore. People joke about sex so easily, and even for movie, 8 out of 10 movies will have the sexual scenes to lure the audience. It has been consider a norm here. Even for Christian, to watch movie together...what should be the reaction when the scene appeared? Oh oh...can't see? :) Yeah...so what should we do? Banned from all movies, be prayful, Soaking more into His Word, into worship and passion in Him, so that He will able to quieten the love that has been awaken? Not sure, something for us to ponder through.
Hmm..got to get back to work. Half day, Saturday- as usual busiest day.
Saturday. Each time scribble something in my blog, I'll be thinking of how fast the time fly. It's near weekend, Saturday. I long for saturday and Sunday to come. Great!
This morning drive to work. Haze in Penang getting bad. Can't even see the mainland from my balcony. That's pretty bad. Wonder what's going on? So much changes in the world. Earlier few months, we talk about Tsunami, then 2nd Tsunami, then 3rd Tsunami- prophesy on the destruction of Penang island, then now terrible haze. Is it a sign, some alarm or warning sign God trying to get to us? Yeah...hmmm...to wake up, to rise up from all the worldly pursue and to press on pursuing His and His eternity? To have a change, a transformation paradigm shift- drawing closer, closer to Him. Obeying Him and His Word in everything. To set ourselves pure and holy, blameless till the end of the day of Christ coming? I don't know, only God knows.
Yesterday real real tired. Never been so tired before. Probably has been long not going out supper as this hour. Sign of aging probably. Yesterday High Step was good. Yeah, a learning and reminder again about pure life, conduct in relationship. One thing catch my attention: "Do not awaken love until it is desired". Truly said, but sadly speaking at such society, it has been norm on freedom of the understanding of sex. It's not conservative anymore. People joke about sex so easily, and even for movie, 8 out of 10 movies will have the sexual scenes to lure the audience. It has been consider a norm here. Even for Christian, to watch movie together...what should be the reaction when the scene appeared? Oh oh...can't see? :) Yeah...so what should we do? Banned from all movies, be prayful, Soaking more into His Word, into worship and passion in Him, so that He will able to quieten the love that has been awaken? Not sure, something for us to ponder through.
Hmm..got to get back to work. Half day, Saturday- as usual busiest day.
Lord, grant me a great day this day- good communication with my staff, a time of love and appreciation for all the things You had placed on my path. Surrendering this day to Your embrace, knowing You're here with me always; therefore I will not be afraid- Trust in You My Lord, Amen!
Friday, August 12, 2005
Praise the Lord!
12th August 2005,
Fri. So fast, almost end of the week. Days passing real speedily. Praise the Lord. Things under control today. I had a small chat with Choong. She's doing okie, able to response well, and the In-Patient TTA has resume back it's operation in order. Has short meeting with Staff on Ward Check, things should be going great. The Staff has actually been improving, just that sometimes I complaint too much, and putting too high expectation that will subsequently put some stress on others.
Learning each day to love my staff, to able to open up the communication. Praise the Lord, overall..work has been good. Tonight will be High Step. Has been cut off from Church Fellowship for quite sometimes. Not really...has been involved in church, CG etc, yet still couldn't able to blend in as before. Especially CG members, why? Is it because most already attached? Maybe I'm over-sensitive. I notice I couldn't really talk to my CG members nowadays, why? Maybe I'm just sensitive,.... probably I need to make initiative to greet them, rather than waiting for them to approach me. Need to be proactive. Praise God, later we will be having dinner with Winnie and Andrew. Seem that they had been blend in the group well. Matt has been doing real great job in follow-upping. Myself, slack a lot in follow-up. Has been quite passive these while. Probably sign of aging.....Not easily to laugh. More solemn nowdays. Should laugh more, laugh at my foolishness, laugh at the problems, laugh at the rigidity...and be cool:)
Fri. So fast, almost end of the week. Days passing real speedily. Praise the Lord. Things under control today. I had a small chat with Choong. She's doing okie, able to response well, and the In-Patient TTA has resume back it's operation in order. Has short meeting with Staff on Ward Check, things should be going great. The Staff has actually been improving, just that sometimes I complaint too much, and putting too high expectation that will subsequently put some stress on others.
Learning each day to love my staff, to able to open up the communication. Praise the Lord, overall..work has been good. Tonight will be High Step. Has been cut off from Church Fellowship for quite sometimes. Not really...has been involved in church, CG etc, yet still couldn't able to blend in as before. Especially CG members, why? Is it because most already attached? Maybe I'm over-sensitive. I notice I couldn't really talk to my CG members nowadays, why? Maybe I'm just sensitive,.... probably I need to make initiative to greet them, rather than waiting for them to approach me. Need to be proactive. Praise God, later we will be having dinner with Winnie and Andrew. Seem that they had been blend in the group well. Matt has been doing real great job in follow-upping. Myself, slack a lot in follow-up. Has been quite passive these while. Probably sign of aging.....Not easily to laugh. More solemn nowdays. Should laugh more, laugh at my foolishness, laugh at the problems, laugh at the rigidity...and be cool:)
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Time of Refreshing
11th August 2005,
Thursday morning. Yesterday I told off Choong of not following the SOP, and shift her to Out-Pt before MSQH. Of course she will not be happy about it. Meeting, meeting and meeting. Another 27days before MSQH. Already pass on the job description and expectation to the staff, hopefully things will be in order. On my side, I need to get into my documentation. Paperwork, paperwork. System, system....
Last nite Prayer Meeting was cool. Sense of deep presence of God with us.
Thursday morning. Yesterday I told off Choong of not following the SOP, and shift her to Out-Pt before MSQH. Of course she will not be happy about it. Meeting, meeting and meeting. Another 27days before MSQH. Already pass on the job description and expectation to the staff, hopefully things will be in order. On my side, I need to get into my documentation. Paperwork, paperwork. System, system....
Last nite Prayer Meeting was cool. Sense of deep presence of God with us.
Time of refreshing, here in Your Presence,
No greater blessing than be with You,
My soul is restored, my mind is renewed,
There's no greater joy Lord
than being with You
Praying for another cool great new day, trusting god's presence with us, His Spirit move us....
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Staffing Issue
10th August 2005,
Wednesday morning. Today is a good day. I want to believe it. In fact everyday is a good day and every new day God's unfolding His Glory in our lives. Early morning, reached office. I tried to come eraly, before 8.30am. Want to set myself example for others to follow regarding punctuality yet people still late. Got a disagreement with Choong over the In-Patient Supplying System. We usually supplied drugs according to the schedule- every 3-4 days (Twice Weekly) but she has been acting on her own discretion, to use shortcut, supplied 7 days (whole week). Her reason is that it's faster and save more time. Of course save more time,but higher chances of wrong charging and pt TTA not contra. This lady has been tellling the other colleague of the lousy twice weekly system. Why others don't complaint, and she does?
I asked her come in my room, am still waiting for her to come in. She quiet. Oh man! It's so difficult deal with people who just don't want to obey and always like to do own way. If that's the case, should I take a disciplinary action? How to start on that? Pls don't force me to take displinary action. I don't want to see things sour up and get the staff scared of the management. Lord, lead how to handle this? Am I really been bossy? Am I seem like dictator? I really don't think so Lord. I do listen to the complaints of others, and I want to give my best, to improve in the area seem necessary. Is it wrong for me to request and set certain level of expectation on the staff? For them to be competant, to be more efficient? Lord, i really don't know, please lead me to talk to this lady. I'm not good in expressing ideas, I pray that You help me to get the ideas across, that the people will understand my concern and heartbeat.
Wednesday morning. Today is a good day. I want to believe it. In fact everyday is a good day and every new day God's unfolding His Glory in our lives. Early morning, reached office. I tried to come eraly, before 8.30am. Want to set myself example for others to follow regarding punctuality yet people still late. Got a disagreement with Choong over the In-Patient Supplying System. We usually supplied drugs according to the schedule- every 3-4 days (Twice Weekly) but she has been acting on her own discretion, to use shortcut, supplied 7 days (whole week). Her reason is that it's faster and save more time. Of course save more time,but higher chances of wrong charging and pt TTA not contra. This lady has been tellling the other colleague of the lousy twice weekly system. Why others don't complaint, and she does?
I asked her come in my room, am still waiting for her to come in. She quiet. Oh man! It's so difficult deal with people who just don't want to obey and always like to do own way. If that's the case, should I take a disciplinary action? How to start on that? Pls don't force me to take displinary action. I don't want to see things sour up and get the staff scared of the management. Lord, lead how to handle this? Am I really been bossy? Am I seem like dictator? I really don't think so Lord. I do listen to the complaints of others, and I want to give my best, to improve in the area seem necessary. Is it wrong for me to request and set certain level of expectation on the staff? For them to be competant, to be more efficient? Lord, i really don't know, please lead me to talk to this lady. I'm not good in expressing ideas, I pray that You help me to get the ideas across, that the people will understand my concern and heartbeat.
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